Wow

It has been a long time since I've posted, not that I haven't thought about it, but my heart hasn't been in it.

My grandmother passed away late November. Early December we had her funeral. It was beautiful. She was buried in a pink casket on the family plot. First off there was her viewing, which I did poorly at. She looked lovely; they did a good job. It wasn't her, but she didn't look bad. I took one look at her and I just started crying. I had to rush to the bathroom. My Aunt J (first letter for privacy) came with me for comfort. For the entire viewing I stayed with my cousin D (first letter for privacy) which was just fine. We talked and just sat comforting eachother. I learned a lot about cousin D this trip, got to know her, and I love my cousin all the more.

The next day was the service at the adobe in the church on the grounds. Sat by my sister, whose bag of sunflower seeds fell when we stood up once. It was funny. I was a little upset that my Uncle B didn't sit up front with the others (grandmother's children, my aunt and uncles). My mom did the uligy (spelling?) and it was lovely. We then were escorted by the police to the cemetery. They shut down some of the roads and did an amazing job of keeping all of our cars together, especially on the freeway. Those amazing police donated their time, they weren't getting paid to do what they did, simply amazing.

She was laid to rest next to Aunt M, her husbands, and our ancestors, who are amazing and important people, especially to us and to California. After all was said and done, we went back to Aunt J's house to have the reception. There was a lovely catering service that had amazing food. I did experience a migraine during this, but it was still fun. A TON of pictures were taken during this time, that's where most of the facebook pictures were taken.

We had to push back the wedding date from the 17th to the 24th because my mother would be unable to make it. She's been down in California for over a month. Since I've been back I've been nearly catatonic. Not really reading, haven't knitted anything, cooked nothing. I'm getting better, but I'm still a bit sad over it, and I think I will be for awhile longer. I'll be happy for my wedding day tho. I'm excited but nervous and stressed with migraines coming on a lot.

So that's what's been going on these couple of weeks. Or few weeks. What day is it? Ugh!

Just Giggle

To Do List

I have done it! 

A project, nah, TWO projects! Below you will see both sides of a pillow. They are from some extra t-shirts I got from Sakura-con last year. They are extra shirts that they were trying to get rid of and I wanted to make them into a pillow. I have two more pillows to make and they will all look something like that.

What you see here is my working station with TWO sewing machines (one is for sale) and the pillow project. So exciting!!!

 A mini sweater is done! I just need the hanger and volia! All done! Isn't it pretty?

A project done and another on the way to being done. I feel SOOO good. Also, I have three books I need to read... I have a to do list and it feels so gooooood.

Thinking

I have been thinking as of late, not only of the wedding, but of my New Years Resolution for 2013.

I'm thinking 50 books and 50 knitting projects OR 100 books... it's still in the planning stages.

While the wedding planning should be FAR more important, I'm surprisingly not that concerned with it. I know what I want, how I want it, how it's planned out, what could go wrong, how we can fix what could go wrong, and still everything will work out. The key is NO MONEY. That also interferes with my New Years Resolution 2013 (or NYR2013).

Now if only our library did kindle books, I would be soooo much happier.

Internet Junkyard #27

STUDENT WHO OBTAINED 0% ON AN EXAM

(I would have given him 100%)

Q1. In which battle did Napoleon die?

* his last battle

Q2. Where was the Declaration of Independence signed?

* at the bottom of the page

Q3. River Ravi flows in which state?

* liquid

Q4. What is the main reason for divorce?

* marriage

Q5. What is the main reason for failure?

* exams

Q6. What can you never eat for breakfast?

* Lunch & dinner

Q7. What looks like half an apple?

* The other half

Q8. If you throw a red stone into the blue sea what it will become?

* It will simply become wet

Q9. How can a man go eight days without sleeping ?

* No problem, he sleeps at night.

Q10. How can you lift an elephant with one hand?

* You will never find an elephant that has only one hand..

Q11. If you had three apples and four oranges in one hand and four apples and three oranges in other hand, what would you have ?

* Very large hands

Q12. If it took eight men ten hours to build a wall, how long would it take four men to build it?

* No time at all, the wall is already built.

Q13. How can u drop a raw egg onto a concrete floor without cracking it?

*Any way you want, concrete floors are very hard to crack.

Rebound

It's been a few days since my appointment with the neurologist and I have to say getting botox for a second time seems to be doing better. I'm not sure if it's my own wishful thinking or if it's true. It's not true for the past couple of days, but overall since that appointment.

While we were at the appointment, Neil went with me, I learned that the one type of headache (not migraine) I get in the very back/base of my head is most likely a rebound headache from medications. Did not know this. Would be hella helpful! Now I know that I shouldn't take anything while I have the headache or migraine in that area and see how I fair.

Also, I was reading this blog and I found that I too feel like it's unfair that other diseases or illnesses are so easy to see and migraines are not. The author goes on to talk about how MS or epilepsy can be seen, but migraines cannot, and thus people are less likely to believe that you have a migraine and are less likely to believe in the pain. Point-in-case is Dr. Ass.

I will leave this post on a great big high note: Shane, my roommate, his cat had kittens this morning!! Three beautiful kittens that are so cute and adorable and just- AWWW!!! I'll see about getting pictures up. The one is like it's mother, a black calico, and the other two are orange, and orange and white. They are SO CUTE!!! Shane held one. I want to hold one tho!!! I'd probably never let it go though...

Boring

Never. I have to say that in this house it is never boring.

Shane just got a kitten, well she isn't a kitten per-say but all cats are still a kitten at heart. Well he needed a bunch of mesh for a hole so she wouldn't get in and get behind the hot water heater. Needless to say he has a LOT extra, even now. The right think would be to save it right?

Nah. It was used to cover Calvin's door. He opened the door to face his mesh prison! Then when he knocked it down, only to trap him in the bathroom after he went in.

Never. Never boring here.

Record Keeping

Well, my attempts to get a better system to record my migraines and stuff related to it is still up in the air. Writing it in journal form isn't working fir me, and finding an app on the phone isn't working for the doctors. Gotta find a solution here.

Dr. H is an Ass

There is a doctor at the clinic I go to to get shots for my migraines that is an ass. And I don't mean a funny "oh that's okay, you're just doing your job" type ass, I mean a real dick head type ass that makes my life harder ass.

Dr. H we shall call him, for privacy sake, believes that I suffer from mild headaches and don't deserve the shots. All this because I don't act like I have a migraine. Not in those words mind you, he said them in ass words, pompous snotty arrogant ass words and sentences, talking to me like an idiot child trying to score some drugs just to get high and not to stop pain from making me blind and from emptying my stomach on his shoes. I wish I did that, the emptying stomach on shoes thing.

Now, because of Dr. H, my primary doctor says I can only get these shots for my migraines, that I normally could get once every two weeks as needed, now only once a month because he too believes I don't have bad enough migraines.

What?! He's known me for 10 years and knows how I don't portray my pain like his other patients. That's how I was raised, you don't make too much of a fuss and are well behaved in public. He has cut back on my pain pills, now my pain shots. My days of laying in bed crying have increased. I'm trying my best to make due, but all thanks to ass Dr. H my life has been made a little bit harder than it needs to be.

Learning to "just deal with it" is getting old and I'm finding it just so much harder to keep fighting the good fight.

So thank you ass Dr. H. You're an ass.

Feed Me

I have come to the conclusion that everyone has this need to feed me. Granted I've come to this conclusion years ago, just reminded of this last night when our friends bought us dinner... and our friend/roommate also bought us dinner as a surprise on his way home. Plus my mom is always trying to get my honey and myself to stay over for dinner. When my "adopted father" Liam lived in L-town he would give me food from his restaurant all the time, like everyday!

Yesterday the girls had so much fun with our friends Chris and Shay. We were playing in the pool and they LOVED that Chris can pick them up and THROW them up and far. Those two can really play ruff with them. It was so much fun to watch. I loved playing with them too. I just hate being out in the sun. Hate it. I got a tan. I hate that. Hate. I need to think of a way to get swimming exercise but not get a tan, suggestions?

Internet Junkyard #19

 GPS

           A couple of weeks ago a friend told me that someone she knew had their car broken into while they were at a football game. Their car was parked on the green which was adjacent to the football stadium and specially allotted to football fans. Things stolen from the car included a garage door remote control, some money and a GPS which had been prominently mounted on the dashboard.

           When the victims got home, they found that their house had been ransacked and just about everything worth anything had been stolen. The thieves had used the GPS to guide them to the house. They then used the garage remote control to open the garage door and gain entry to the house. The thieves knew the owners were at the football game, they knew what time the game was scheduled to finish and so they knew how much time they had to clean out the house. It would appear that they  had brought a truck to empty the house of its contents.

           Something to consider if you have a GPS - don't put your home address in it.. Put a nearby address (like a store or gas station) so you can still find your way home if you need to, but no one else would know where you live if your GPS were stolen.

           MOBILE PHONES

           I never thought of this.......

           This lady has now changed her habit of how she lists her names on her mobile phone after her handbag was stolen. Her handbag, which contained her cell phone, credit card, wallet... Etc...was stolen.

           20 minutes later when she called her hubby, from a pay phone telling him what had happened, hubby says 'I received your text asking about our Pin number and I've replied a little while ago.' When they rushed down to the bank, the bank staff told them all the money was already withdrawn. The thief had actually used the stolen cell phone to text 'hubby' in the contact list and got hold of the pin number. Within 20 minutes he had withdrawn all the money from their bank account .

           Moral of the lesson:

           Do not disclose the relationship between you and the people in your contact list.

           Avoid using names like Home, Honey, Hubby, Sweetheart, Dad, Mom, etc....

           And very importantly, when sensitive info is being asked through texts, CONFIRM by calling back

           Also, when you're being texted by friends or family to meet them somewhere, be sure to call back to confirm that the message came from them. If you don't reach them, be very careful about going places to  meet 'family and friends' who text you..

A Month Late

I swear I live! I just haven't had the nerve to write. That and there hasn't been anything to write about. I have been dealing with migraines and books. I've been in reading mode. Reread the Twilight series. :) That made me happy. Sadly I had to deal with my head and desire to read. Finally read my "The Clockwork Angel" and the second book is on it's way!!! So excited!!!

No news on the creative front! Sorry!  I wish I had better news!!! 2012 is just not the year for knitting I think. I burned it out with my 100 crafts in a year. T_T so sad.

This was posted recently and I had to share it! Isn't it great? So true, so true.

Resurrecting Knitting

There are three steps then the deck, so is that actually four steps? Or is it still three steps up to the door? 1-2-3-and then the deck to the door. Is it four steps or three? Ah! So confusing!

In other news, I'm alive. Not dead, not missing, alive and still kicking. My head might be telling me otherwise but I'm still here. The botox maybe helping with the tension migraines but I'm still getting other migraines, had to go in for shots on Thursday. Icky.

Enough depressing shit. On to happy cute things- BABIES! Everyone it seems is having babies! First they were all getting married, now they are having babies. Most of them are so adorable I want to punch them in the face. Not really, but you know the feeling when you get that feeling that you just want to squeeze something when you see something so adorable you just... Ugh! I can't explain it without hand motions.

Anyways, it should be kicking-in my creative juices for knitting. I knitted that one pair of oversized baby booties and that's it. Run dry. No more. Nada. Zip. Done. I've tried and ripped out several different things. It's just not in me. What the hell is going on. Is it the migraines? Is it the lack of females telling me "Awww, that's so cuuuute, you should totally make that for that itty-bitty lil' baby" complete with baby talk and giggles? *sigh* Should I throw in the towel?

Whatever the case may be, I have to figure out what to do to get me back into knitting, I love it too much to let it go.

Root Beer

While I'm waiting for the stroke of genius to fall upon me, I decided to have a root beer soda. A root beer float would be even better now that I think about it. Getting back to the point. I needed something different, from my usual ginger ale, to give me some sort of inspiration.

I am running out of ideas to keep me busy and to keep me sane.

We are running into such financial issues and stress that my migraines are triggering. What can we do? I can't work because of the stress on my head and my back. And going to school is just too much. Disability is not getting back to us on the progress. I'm so confused and lightheaded, in desperate need of a haircut... inspiration, where are you? Give me something to focus on, something to accomplish.

The baby stuff is just annoying me because I can't find socks that are baby small, not child small. You'd think it wouldn't be this hard. Ugh!

Okay, I'm off for a nap. Root beer didn't do it for me. Wish you guys better luck!

A Diffrence

Surprisingly the botox has helped. Or so I feel it has. Enough to make a difference. I have still gotten a couple of migraines since the injections but it would seem they are helping.

Enough about silly migraines and headaches (yes there is a difference). I have decided to come clean about something... *deep breath* I'm addicted to pretty much anything that Felicia Day dose. I'm constantly on her youtube channel, fan of hers on the tv shows, and yah, well... I"m a fan girl. Whew, glad to get that off my chest. Oh, here's a link to her wikipedia site.

Since my baby bootys seem to be far too big for new borns, I need to find different patterns or a whole new project for li'l bitty babies... mine seem to be super sized infants. I know we have a problem with obese children, but seriously, I need a pattern for smaller feet here. I guess I'm doomed for another project that probably will be for hefty babies too. Ugh!

Over all, feeling a difference with the botox (I think anyways), and looking for a difference with the whole knitting baby small things.

Botox

Tomorrow is when I'm getting botox. "But you're so young..." is probably what you're saying, and you're right.

Botox is going to be injected in my head in hopes it will aid in preventing migraines.

I am scared. This is scary. And I hope it works.

Mine and Hers Post

Yes, I do relies that the title of my last post was Quest and not Guest. It was a mistype that I just left alone because I thought it was cool.

It's been a week since my last post and some things have happened. One is my other half had to drop his smart phone (and basically a phone all together) from our phone plan to save money. Yah, we're doing that. We love our smart phones so much that we made it our last thing to go. You know, cut everything else out of the budget first before you do the one last thing, ours was the smart phones. I was like, "NOOoooooooo" and sobbing. Neil on the other hand was all cool about it, even though I know he was hurting a bit on the inside.

I finished baby booties, and they're so BIG still. I made them smaller, and they're still so big! What am I doing wrong? >_<

Botox for the migraines is kinda getting me in a tail spin. I got an email from a lady who's opinion I truest and I've been mulling it over and over in my brain. Really need to email her back.

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Now on to the main attraction, my niece has once again made us a blog post, it is about a manga/anime that she likes:

Mew Mew Powers I like this show. The characters are names Ichigo, Mint, Lettice, Pudding, Zakiro, Masaga, Tyou, Keichire, Masha and Kish. This is a great manga because it is really cool and awesome.

Quest Speaker

My niece has agreed to post a piece for my blog. Hope you enjoy her thoughts.
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Hey! This is your post writer here, I am going to tell you that posting is so fun and you should really do it. Now this is your life-time experience. Posting you can write anything that you want to. Have a wonderful spring and summer. ~ Lauren

One Down

I finished one bootie. Now on to the second one. I didn't just finish the first one. It was the day before yesterday, I just have been so down I haven't had to heart to make a new post till now. I still wanted to have Isabelle's pictures as the first post. While I'm still not over her, I"m getting better. Less crying, more doing normal things, like knitting and reading a book!

Yes, reading a book! Dawn of the Dreadfuls by Steve Hockensmith. So excited to finish it. You know me, once I start a book it's hard for me to not finish it in one sitting. Between my book from the library and the DVDs and knitting, I got nothing.

One bootie down. One day down. Moving on is hard, but it's okay, we're getting threw it.

Princess FluffyButt

Today was not an anniversary for my parents to remember. She hasn't been well. I still feel a loss that hurts. I can't say much more.

I hope you had all you could wish for and more, Isabelle.

URB

Hey guys, you need to check this out. When I need to cheer up I look at Ugly Renaissance Babies Yes, Ugly Renaissance Babies. As you know in that era is when they were just starting out with looking at proportions. They are lovely at shadows and vibrant colors, but so... well, take a look.

I Love To Knit!

I truly enjoy knitting. Right now I'm working on baby booties! Found this amazingly soft yellow yarn amongst my stash. Since it's for a boy, and I have no blue, I thought yellow would be nice. I'm making it the size for a 12-18 months old but I swear I could probably put my feet in... it's... hopefully going to change once it gets sewn together.

Still can't knit for very long, but I've made a lot of progress in just about... *thinking* 10-ish hours. Which is pretty good considering my hands shake and I'm using US 2 needles! LOL  It would be funny watching to those who are knitters. I"m about to get a ton of DVDs from the library so that will help the time go by. So exciting now that I have a goal. Two pairs of booties. One boy pair for Marrissa, and a girl pair for Bri. My friend Sarah still hasn't told me if she wanted a pair or not so I'm deciding if I should make her them or not...

Internet Junkyard #18

My aunt sent me this and enjoyed this:

As we Silver Surfers know, sometimes we have trouble with our computers. I had a problem yesterday, so I called Eric, the 11 year old next door, whose bedroom looks like Mission Control, and asked him to come over.
Eric clicked a couple of buttons and solved the problem.
As he was walking away, I called after him, 'So, what was wrong ?  He replied, 'It was an ID ten T error.'
I didn't want to appear stupid, but nonetheless inquired,
'An, ID ten T error ? What's that? In case I need to fix it again.'
Eric grinned....
'Haven't you ever heard of an ID ten T error before ?
'No,' I replied.
'Write it down,' he said, 'and I think you'll figure it out.' So I wrote down:
ID10T
I used to like Eric, the little shit.if you're not a Senior yet then send this to one...

Finally

Finally finished a project! It's a mini blanket (2 by 1 1/2 hands) for my niece to help her grow out of her blankey. It's not much, but it's finally something.

So I'm no longer in school. I haven't decided if it's a good or bad thing yet. *sigh* if you wish to hear the whole story let me know, but it's a bit complicated for typing.

Our roommate K left us for a better opportunity and taking his room is S. Our new roommate is pretty awesome. We've known him for a long time. It's nice to finally have someone else who appreciates tea. :)

All For Now

Turns out I might not be a student this quarter after all. It will all be decided all tomorrow. Part of me wishes it is true, that I'm not going back, but part of me wishes to go back. Such mixed feelings about it.

Con was amazing, and fast. It was fun though, I had to take a lot of pain pills (not as many as you think!) but still had fun doing my part. I don't do much for con when I'm just an attendee so it works out.

Con's blood drive was awesome! The amazing people there that donated their time and those that donated their blood were truly brilliant!!! The Dark Horse company donated DVDs and Mangas to us for all those that donate! It was great!

Make-A-Wish did fabulous this year as well. Truly awesome.

Friday Con

Waaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!! Who would have guessed that being Assistant Public Relations Manager would require so much walking. It's cool though, it's all pretty much all flat. Next year I'm going to need better shoes... and business cards.

Knowing my other half, N, is only in the hotel room and not attending con makes me really upset. I do wish he'd volunteer, but I can't make him do something he doesn't want to do.

Well, break over and battery still not charged all the way. :(

Knit!!!

I've been knitting!!! But I fail at it. Somehow I am so slow at it that it's embarrassing!

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Sakura-con is coming up and I'm so nervous! I feel like I should be doing so much more. No idea how to, or what to, but I feel like I should be doing something.

It's really odd. I start school on the 2nd (monday) then leave on the 5th (thursday) and get back on the following monday. Miss so much school. Ahhh.

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Sorry guys, this isn't much of a post, I've been lacking in my posting duties, I have been failing you.

Internet Junkyard #17

I love Internet Junkyard posts. They are the emails that you get in your inbox's that are worth sharing.

Mental Feng Shui

This is without a doubt one of the nicest good luck forwards I have received. Hope it works for you -- and me!

Lotus Touts: You have 6 minutes

There's some mighty fine advice in these words, even if you're not superstitious. This Lotus Touts has been sent to you for good luck from the Anthony Robbins organization. It has been sent around the world ten times so far.

The Lotus Touts must leave your hands in 6 MINUTES. Otherwise you will get a very unpleasant surprise. This is true, even if you are not superstitious, agnostic, or otherwise faith impaired.

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully..

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly. < SPAN>

THIRTEEN! ...... When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY- ONE. Spend some time alone.

Shaky

Damn it.

My friend Kanako is amazing embroider, and I was hopping to try my hand at it. So exciting! My mom has this pattern that I've always wanted to finish for her, most of it needs to be finished. Now, tonight, me being impatient as I am, I tried it out today. I did some of it rather well! Then my hands started shaking like they "normally" seem to do now.

This isn't going to work.

Sadly Behind

Crafty crafty crafty. Oh how I love to look, but I do not touch. I would be such a good kid in a candy store. T_T  Can't wait till summer so I can get some projects done!!! To even get time to do some projects, I'm still not done with two christmas gifts. CHRISTMAS gifts... how sad is that? I haven't even sent off my dad's socks! I'm terrible. Also, I have a lot of baby bootys to make.

Migraine report is still getting worse, one every two or three days. Won't know if it's purely stress until summer when I can compare notes without the school.

Neil's birthday was yesterday! He's 30!!! That means I'm getting older too! T_T

Battling

Starting school was suppose to be an alternative to work. That would be fine if I could manage it just fine. But the migraines are getting worse. I don't even have time to knit or do crafts! Though to be honest, I can't really knit much with a migraine anyways, so school or work it wouldn't matter much.

I'm at the half way mark at the quarter and it's a daily battle with homework and the head. Battling everyday is tiring.

Purple

Purple fingernails! Yes, I am that desperate for blog ideas. That and I think this is a really cute color.

Crazy New Year

Recently I took on 15 credits at school. That is insane. I have NO idea what possessed me to say "hey I'll take on 3 full on classes this quarter *click*"

With this load, I have had so many migraines that axert and vicodin have been used in excess. This goes agents my personal goal to talk about my migraines less (due to a friend's "comments") but it goes with what's going on right now.

I have not had time to knit! I feel terrible! It's like a drug... need to get my fix! Plus I have projects to get done... :/

Crazy.

First post of the new year! Happy New Year everyone!