Thursday, March 20, 2014


Some of my pictures on this blog are no longer there, no idea what happened. Sorry everyone. :(


It's that time of year again! Babies are being brought into this world! So many of my friends are having babies, in like hoards. They all had this meeting 9 months ago and said that their goal was to populate March with some of the CUTEST babies ever!

So, of course, I'm getting low, tho I did talk to my lady doctor and he said he'd be willing to tie the tubes! And if I can't have kids why tie the tubes? Well, I *can* get pregnant, my uterus just won't expand with the fetus, so why risk it anyways? Plus all these health issues have me not wanting to pass anything along. Oddly enough, I'm not that sad about it anymore. I think having all these nieces and nephews and god children really make me feel part of a family. It's not that I don't get sad about it, I'm just less sad about it.

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After my biological father passed, I've been trying to find ways to connect with my siblings and that side of the family, but I'm having a hard time. I don't think I've talked to them since we left that day. Over a week ago. I feel like a bad person, but at the same time, what do I say? Plus how am I to connect with them now that my only connection is gone?

Any advice welcome.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Internet Junkyard #26

There's a name for this disorder.

Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder.

This is how it manifests:

I decide to water my garden. As I turn on the hose in the driveway, I look over at my car and decide it needs washing.

As I start toward the garage, I notice mail on the porch table that I brought up from the mail box earlier

I decide to go through the mail before I wash the car.

I lay my car keys on the table, put the junk mail in the garbage can under the table, and notice that the can is full.

So, I decide to put the bills back on the table and take out the garbage first..

But then I think, since I'm going to be near the mailbox when I take out the garbage anyway, I may as well pay the bills first.

I take my check book off the table, and see that there is only one check left. My extra checks are in my desk in the study, so I go inside the house to my desk where I find the can of Pepsi I'd been drinking.

I'm going to look for my checks, but first I need to push the Pepsi aside so that I don't accidentally knock it over.

The Pepsi is getting warm, and I decide to put it in the refrigerator to keep it cold.

As I head toward the kitchen with the Pepsi, a vase of flowers on the counter catches my eye--they need water.

I put the Pepsi on the counter and discover my reading glasses that I've been searching for all morning. I decide I better put them back on my desk, but first I'm going to water the flowers.

I set the glasses back down on the counter, fill a container with water and suddenly spot the TV remote. Someone left it on the kitchen table.

I realize that tonight when we go to watch TV, I'll be looking for the remote, but I won't remember that it's on the kitchen table, so I decide to put it back in the den where it belongs, but first I'll water the flowers.

I pour some water in the flowers, but quite a bit of it spills on the floor.

So, I set the remote back on the table, get some towels and wipe up the spill.

Then, I head down the hall trying to remember what I was planning to do.

At the end of the day: the car isn't washed the bills aren't paid there is a warm can of Pepsi sitting on the counter the flowers don't have enough water, there is still only 1 check in my check book, I can't find the remote, I can't find my glasses, and I don't remember what I did with the car keys Then, when I try to figure out why nothing got done today, I'm really baffled because I know I was busy all damn day, and I'm really tired.

I realize this is a serious problem, and I'll try to get some help for it, but first I'll check my e-mail....

Do me a favor. Forward this message to everyone you know, because I don't remember who the hell I've sent it to.

Don't laugh -- if this isn't you yet, your day is coming!!

What are friends for!!!

Saturday, March 01, 2014


First off, I want to say, my dad was an amazing person.

Secondly, we didn't have a good couple of years.

My father passed away last night. My biological father.

Still processing, still crying.

I'm not even sure what to do. We haven't spoken in over a year.

Come to find out how was rather sad, I didn't know his health was so bad.