Monday, May 26, 2008


Well dear readers~ I have some great news: I have finished the purse!!! Granted it's not so pretty... But still... I finally finished it...

As you know, I'm a terrible sewer... TERREBLE!!! I killed TWO sewing needles (from the machine)... Mom's beautiful new high-tech sewing machine... it has all these awesome patterns and great stitches!!! Oops- sorry, I should have mentioned that it's a touch screen computer sewing machine... so yeah

I REALLY like how the strap turned out... I think it's rather neat. In case you can't tell from the pictures... ((hint hint)) there is a leaf-stitch-pattern that I tried to put into the works. Leaves are my signature think I think...

But other then that-yesterday Neil's best friend and his "wife" and their child came over to visit... well the boys played with their computers. They set them up in the kitchen, right on the table... so... much... cables... it was kinda scary... buuuuuuuuuut they had so much fun. I was in charge of keeping the "wife" and kid entertained.

Which would have been great fun [sarcasm]... however the neighbors dog was out again and I saw him, put a leash on him and took him back home and put him in the backyard since they weren't home yet. On the way there he pulled me too much and my back was screaming to me, I nearly lost my walking ability the pain was great. But I wanted the doggie to be safe so I did it anyways, he's SUPER STRONG!!!!! He maybe blind but that dog is VERY STRONG!!!

So there you go. A rather intresting update but you get the idea. I'm just happy Neil was happy about the whole thing.

Saturday, May 24, 2008


I am alive.

Though my life isn't interesting, this blog (internet really) is just a dump for my whining and complaining. Oh well, you're reading it.

I was sewing all day! I feel good about getting something done, but it looks terrible! I'll have pictures up soon... soon-ish. It's part of the purse I'm making for a former co-worker. I hope that she likes it. Though it's very ugly.

There was a frog in our pool! He's so cute!!! Neil was cleaning out the pool and getting it all ready when he found him! We've been listening to him every night croaking loudly! We put him in a container and eventually set him free. My first hopes was to give him to a local family that owns a local shop downtown that lost their froggiess. But they couldn't so I took him down to the river after I dropped Neil off at work. I hope he's okay.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Always Coca-Cola

Vanilla coke… how I love you~ let me count the ways… one sip, two sip, thr-GULP. Sammy is laying curled up next to me and I’m loving it! If you know me you know that I love to use the word love. It is a VERY powerful word- but I use it in many different ways. Why can’t we (English speaking people… that sounds raciest) have different words for love. Like love for a friend, love for a family member, love for a lover, love for a cute warm fuzzy animal… why not?

One day later… I got my hair cut today- it’s REALLY short, but the woman who cut it and helped it look better was so awesome! I’m so wanting to be her friend. She understands how my back is and my fear of driving. The only reason it’s so short is because I was in the shower and decided to cut it… yeah… too short in the back so she decided to make it look as good as she could. My hair is still messy, but it’s nice and lighter and so much cooler now.

Two days later… anyways, I’m laying here and my back is all funky. I bent down to pick up a piece of metal I saw laying the grass. Little did I know my leg would suddenly get a sharp tingly pain and I called Neil to help me up and to go lay down… I felt it coming on, the whole day it was nagging at me- with waves of uncomfortable pain (not un-manageable if that makes any sense). Tingly type pain. Anyways, felt it coming on, still pushed myself, bent down in the yard, sharp pain that made me cry, laying down and somehow cannot get my back muscles (lower back) to relax, I even have a hot pack to help loosen the muscles.

So yeah… My life sucks, but I can do anything with Neil at my side.

Friday, May 09, 2008

totally not working out

Well... I finished part of the purse... all that's left is to line it with fabric- which mom wants to show me. I'm rather excited about it.

BUUUUT it's too small. SOOOOO I went to the yarn store downtown when I was going to the "former" work pace to get my things and purchased two bundles of the yarn. She gave me such a deal because it's left over yarn... I got both of these for $9.97!!! I dumped out ALLL the change I had and she just wanted to get rid of it. I got such a great deal! It makes me so happy.

I plan on doubling the size of the purse. I'm keeping the old one.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

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I have been let go from my job due to my injury...

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Pills Suck

I have decided that because of this quest to find out what's up with my back... it's getting so depressing that I have to explain it and write it out for others to understand why I get so upset about it:

In the morning:
-Lamictal 100mg (a mood stabiliser) take one and one half tablet
-Calcium [500mg] & Magnesium [250mg](to help with migraines) just one tablet
-Alli 60mg (weight loss aid) just one capsule
-Sertraline 100mg (antidepressants) 2 pills
-Omeprazole 20mg (helps the stomach acid) one capsule
-Gabapentin 300mg (to help with pain in the back) one capsule

-Gabapentin 300mg (to help with pain in the back) one capsule

In the evening:
-Lamictal 100mg (a mood stabiliser) take one and one half tablet
-Tri-Sprintec (aka birth control) take one tablet
-Verapamil SR 180 (migraine prevention) one tablet
-Zolpidem 10mg (sleeping aid) one tablet when needed
-Magnesium 250mg (to help with migraines) just one tablet
-Woman's multi-vitamin (for overall healthy-ness) just one tablet
-Gabapentin 300mg (to help with pain in the back) one capsule

When needed:
-Hydrocod 5/apap500 (very powerful narcotic used for extreme pain, mostly for my migraines)
-Quinine leg cramps (need only when there are leg cramps that are unbearable.)
-Naproxen 500mg (help with pain in back/leg) 1-3 tablets daily
-Gabapentin 300mg (help with back/leg pain) 3 tablets daily
-Metoclopramide 10mg (use for onset of headache/migraine) 1/2 to one tablet
-Axert 12.5mg (use for onset of migraine/headache) 1 tablet 2 max daily

So I'm taking at least 14 pills a day... that is very depressing if you ask me. Why so many you may ask, I'll tell you why, because I'm somehow a defected human. If I lived in Germany when the whole Hitler thing was going on (their darkest part of history, I feel bad that they have to live with that for the rest of the country's life) I would be put in the gas chambers. I think mostly because I'm dark haired and dark eyed, plus I would stand-up for the Jewish people the best I could, AAAANNNDDD all my health issues.

This is a rather depressing post, I know, but if you were facing financial issues like mine, you would get depressed as well. I am so tired of hurting and so tired of feeling helpless and useless. I'm sure someone who reads this can relate. Neil is doing so well in helping me feel better. I talked to my boss today and I'm worried I may not have a job to go back to anymore. I felt like a family there, but now I'm faced with loosing the job I love and the people that I care about. That place is so unique and wonderful that you can't help but care about it deeply.

Several things that are helping get threw this: Neil, Samuri, knitting, tea, and my family and friends. Neil for loving me, Samuri for being my baby, knitting to get my mind off things and feel like I'm actually accomplishing something, and tea for relaxing me.

Sorry dear readers for the 'no picture' post and being all depressed like. I need to vent to more then just the people around me (to get it out) and to let you readers know how my life is going.

Again, sorry or no pictures.