Fortune for me that I am ignorant to most things around me. The small things seem to be the ones that I catch, just as they fall to the floor. The tiny little things that are meant to be left there, pushed away till it's time to sweep them all up into a dust pan and dealt with as a mass.
Don’t misunderstand. I’m not stupid, or maybe I am. If I am I am ignorant to the knowledge of otherwise. There have always been people that wanted and still do want, to protect me. I have this, innocence, or purity, like that of the meaning of my name. I tell otherwise, try to leave them with a sly-eye as if to say ‘is that so?’ Who knows to what they think afterwords. I’m just a 24 year old female that is mentally ill.
{too dark to leave on the blog}
Told you it would be dark. If you actually read it all, I wonder what my reader stats would be. More? Less? No different? Do I even HAVE readers?
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I am Neo. The Ghost of a person who once was, but do have something that may help. I wish to speak first of the wedding band. I understand, I know how important such a simple ring is. It's not just a piece of metal, it has meaning, it is a way to tell the world you are not only taken, not only with someone, but you are loved, you are cared for, and you are forever his, in his heart, on your mind, forever sworn to be one, not two separate people but one person, one soul. I personally think that that band will help alot of this. You feel comfort in his arms, but you also know he cannot forever be there, he does have work and such that he cannot stay, but you also know he will return, and I am sure that helps you alot. If you get the ring, it is always a part of him that is holding you, something to comfort you when you need it. It wont be as good as he is, but it is alot in and of itself.
And the voices, I promise you are not the only one, every time I close my eyes, the things I see scare me, but not near as bad as what I have read here. I have done things to see what would happen, and I know what a treat it can be, how it can, at times, silence some of the voices, but I also know that in time, they come back, they always do, and most of the time louder then before. I have trained myself to tune them out, and was only able to do that because they were, in a way, quiet. What I say for that, aside from chocolates, which do help, a little bliss when they are at their worst, but for times when they seem to be bad, bring a friend, anyone you can trust, and meditate. It sounds odd but they will get a little worse when you do, but after a little time, they will start to quiet, and the more you do it, the quieter they get. After a while, as long as you meditate every once and a while, they can keep quiet, at least for me.
And, the worst of the worst here, the aunt. You may not be the fun aunt, but in time (I assume they are young) the fun aunt will fade, they will still love to see her, but she is not someone who they can talk to, you on the other hand, the 'crazy' aunt, will be the one they turn to when they cant talk to their parents or friends. Right now you may have to wait, be the best you can be, but know that when they are older, you will be one of the few they can turn to for advice, for help. Now dont doubt at all that they love you, I know they do, but just know it may be a while before your their favorite.
I can only pray I helped, and I will save this, add it to my favorites so if you wish, I can help any time I can, forever as Neo.
I am Neo. The Ghost of a person who once was, but do have something that may help. I wish to speak first of the wedding band. I understand, I know how important such a simple ring is. It's not just a piece of metal, it has meaning, it is a way to tell the world you are not only taken, not only with someone, but you are loved, you are cared for, and you are forever his, in his heart, on your mind, forever sworn to be one, not two separate people but one person, one soul. I personally think that that band will help alot of this. You feel comfort in his arms, but you also know he cannot forever be there, he does have work and such that he cannot stay, but you also know he will return, and I am sure that helps you alot. If you get the ring, it is always a part of him that is holding you, something to comfort you when you need it. It wont be as good as he is, but it is alot in and of itself.
And the voices, I promise you are not the only one, every time I close my eyes, the things I see scare me, but not near as bad as what I have read here. I have done things to see what would happen, and I know what a treat it can be, how it can, at times, silence some of the voices, but I also know that in time, they come back, they always do, and most of the time louder then before. I have trained myself to tune them out, and was only able to do that because they were, in a way, quiet. What I say for that, aside from chocolates, which do help, a little bliss when they are at their worst, but for times when they seem to be bad, bring a friend, anyone you can trust, and meditate. It sounds odd but they will get a little worse when you do, but after a little time, they will start to quiet, and the more you do it, the quieter they get. After a while, as long as you meditate every once and a while, they can keep quiet, at least for me.
And, the worst of the worst here, the aunt. You may not be the fun aunt, but in time (I assume they are young) the fun aunt will fade, they will still love to see her, but she is not someone who they can talk to, you on the other hand, the 'crazy' aunt, will be the one they turn to when they cant talk to their parents or friends. Right now you may have to wait, be the best you can be, but know that when they are older, you will be one of the few they can turn to for advice, for help. Now dont doubt at all that they love you, I know they do, but just know it may be a while before your their favorite.
I can only pray I helped, and I will save this, add it to my favorites so if you wish, I can help any time I can, forever as Neo.
I am Neo. The Ghost of a person who once was, but do have something that may help. I wish to speak first of the wedding band. I understand, I know how important such a simple ring is. It's not just a piece of metal, it has meaning, it is a way to tell the world you are not only taken, not only with someone, but you are loved, you are cared for, and you are forever his, in his heart, on your mind, forever sworn to be one, not two separate people but one person, one soul. I personally think that that band will help alot of this. You feel comfort in his arms, but you also know he cannot forever be there, he does have work and such that he cannot stay, but you also know he will return, and I am sure that helps you alot. If you get the ring, it is always a part of him that is holding you, something to comfort you when you need it. It wont be as good as he is, but it is alot in and of itself.
And sorry about the comments o-o it said it was too long to post! D:
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